Sometimes life brings you to a stop. When once upon a time you'd strayed from the crossroads and found yourself looking all over for a way to escape those red lights and STOP signs, to finding yourself back on track on a One Way street.. you now face a Dead End with no way out.
The only option you have is to retrace your steps back to where you began and start all over, or take your chance and climb over that fence and accept what fate brings you. For once you make it past the seemingly endless field behind that gate there will be no chance of ever coming back.
That's because this is no ordinary border secured with barbed wire. This is you, and everything you've been working for in the past who-knows-how-many years. This is your life, past and present, and perhaps your future. This is all the chances you had to express your thoughts or right the wrong. This is all the mistakes you've made and all the chances you chose not to take to correct them. This is all the bloodshed and tears, and all your worries and fears. It may break whatever's left of your morals, your pride, your integrity, your hopes.. or it may heal your scars and allow you to start anew on this journey to find yourself and, more importantly, to be yourself.
Now I stand before this fence with barbed wire, this gate of Time, this Dead End. Motionless, just thinking of all the things I still want to hold on to and all the things I should let go, I find it painful to even think of turning around and looking back even just once. Yet staring at the blue and purple shades of the setting star, the greatest of our universe as we know it, I begin to lose myself amidst the rather grave projections of light. And despite all my fears deep inside I'm choosing to stay lost in the light while keeping a calm and collected exterior to guard against possible intruders, at least until hopefully an idea so inspired by nothing my mind already knows will find its way to me in time for all of this to work out well--for all the mistakes to be given a chance to repair themselves and for yet another 'second chance' at lasting peace in the future.
I'm holding on.. and I'm letting go. This is all I know. As for everything else, I guess only time will tell...